Woke up at 2.00 am this morning covered in sweat, crying my eyes out and my little (icy stone cold) heart racing 20 to the dozen. Why? The fear is well and truly upon me. Let me tell you about my dream:
“ It’s the morning of the big “M”. I’m in the race pen (now thinking about it, I think I was possibly a sheep at this time? But anyway) I’m looking at everyone, taking in the pretty surroundings of Blackheath. To the left of me is emu and what I think is meant to be Big Bird, we’re nervously smiling at each other adjusting our headphones, and then we are off. We start jogging down the road which then turns into spaghetti junction, there are thousands of people all around me, I then decide that I’m a pro @ Parkour ... so running up buildings, jumping over roads (obviously I had found myself a shortcut) looking pretty darn good I have to say....then I look up and see Team Alice as it’s magically got to 15 miles already (barely even broken a sweat obv)...immediately I start crying and run up for a huge hug when then.....
I get grabbed by some big burly wardens who drag me off out of the marathon, I’m kicking and screaming asking what’s happening, I can then see my parents up at 21 miles (don’t ask me how...it’s a dream) waiting for me to run/walk/crawl past, then the huge wardens shout at me and say I’m not a proper runner (hmm, go figure) & then they then point out my major flaw. I’m not actually wearing a running number nor my chip....turn’s out that I had forgotten to register the day before, so now I’m not allowed to complete the marathon.”
I then woke up bawling my eyes out. The disappointment/anger I felt was immense... along with the thought of letting people down. I think this is obviously my main fear. So please, please, please, can someone remind me to go to the Excel centre on Friday the 15th, and also, if I am the last person running when all the traffic has started flowing again, please wait for me, with a beer in hand?
Thankyou. Oh, here’s a little link that that would've made me giggle 8 months ago, but has now actually scared the bejesus out of me....you're all picturing me me in this clip now arent you?!
